Part 4–My Soul Was Crying…
From the Beginning…
I embarked on a life-changing journey through Scripture.
I began learning Hebrew, studying and understanding Scripture with a depth I had never experienced before.
This journey would also pave the way to some very deep self-discovery.
I felt the urging to share with my husband what I was learning, and the
resulting changes I desired in our life together.
The Holy Spirit was telling me that it was time to shine…
Suddenly I felt panic like never before.
I was paralyzed with fear.
I sat there in the car as we drove back from San Diego
unable to utter a single word.
The silence was deafening—
an eerie and familiar feeling.
I began to search myself, trying desperately to discover why I was so afraid to speak. After all, we met on the speech and debate team!
My husband is a very mild-tempered man—
had never raised his voice,
never spoken a cruel word to me.
I prayed in desperation for an answer to the source of my fear.
Then suddenly, there I was…
standing in the hallway of my parents’ home
outside the bathroom door…
listening in terror
to the deafening silence…
…waiting to hear something…
…anything…
…a sob…
…a scream…
…a trickle of water against the tub…
…any sound…
…just to know she was still alive…
